You have to have something that is your own focus
In order to be a human and a whole one at that apparently it is necessary to have your own focus in life I started of with an art as my focus When I tried to make my art my living it started ok ish but soon dived into a pleasure bending marriage ending spiral down into illness So, whilst I was wondering if I was Prince Charles - I did have big ears and I did say controversial things and I did have a beautiful young wife and two children at the time - or whilst I was talking to the cameras and microphones in the walls of our house or practicing in my head how I would receive the bullet that was about to rip through my neck - would I jiggle just so in order that it would pass through all my major organs and not harm me - could I really be the second coming? Can I drive through that wall and float over the tree tops? Well, there was that lot and more - I kept knocking my elbows off for one thing Every time we needed money as a family I froze - couldn't work it - mentally hea...